November 30, 2023
It is not possible for me to surrender myself. Surrender must happen just as humility must happen. It is God who exercises the will, it is God who makes these things possible. When I accept this truth, then surrender is possible. As long as I have independent desire, self willing, longing and insisting, surrender is not possible. The question “How must I make it take place?" Is absurd. I cannot surrender myself nor can I be humbled by willing it.
If I had a searchlight turned within, whatever I was doing, I would see clearly that nothing exists - nothing belongs to me. It is all foolishness. It is foolishness to think my house is burning and feel unhappy about the loss. It is also foolishness to say the house that is burning belongs to somebody else and not care. Both reactions have to be renounced and when all this is given up, and the truth of oneness will be revealed, will be seen. This oneness cannot be cultivated but it can be experienced when the darkness of ignorance is removed.
We cannot create or achieve unity at the moment the darkness in ourselves is gone, we realize that oneness is there. When the darkness disappears, the light of the self will reveal itself. It shines on its own account. It does not need to be created. It is there.